\\ the time i've spent

i've spent the last few days inside; primarily for my lungs
and also for the fear of getting pneumonia. and i spent
a few hours each day feeling the inside of my chest expand
and deflate, controlling my air and almost meditating over
my organs (beautiful?)
i've been reading nick hornby (from elaina) and barbara
kingsolver (from mother) and listening to the new live
wilco "kicking television" - holy man. man.

man.

also, sondre lerche, loretta lynn, sigur ros, and the band.
i wouldn't call any of those artists meditative, or helpful for
my air control: but they are keeping me warm and going.

i've been thinking lots about people who are close to me
and i hope all you reading this know that i'm thinking of you
and waiting until we can see each other again. i've got amazing
things in my life, and i am continually finding strength and love
and perfection in people/animals/music. (uplifting?)
maybe i'll have a chance to tell you how i feel sometime, and
not feel shy about letting you in.


get in here, hug-o-tron!
aidan knight.